The other day, we received a message stating that we were going for a conference- International Youth Day something something.
Dress code – Office Casual.
The search for the kind of cloth to wear took over.
How was I supposed to know when I reached 50% Office- 50% Casual and not 70-30 or vice versa.
I wanted to look good but not too good. Just casual kinda good.
It’s always a big deal for me to look good.
Anyways, thank God, we looked like Angels from up high above. It was indeed a fun packed Youth Day.
I learnt something new.
Safe Spaces.
A few days ago, my friend- a church big brother -Uncle- kinda friend, accused me of not keeping in touch; of disappearing and reappearing at will, of not bothering to see if he existed. And he mentioned that this was a pattern and one that was bad too. He said I didnt regard him as family.
I didn’t know how to respond.
He was right.
He was right to be upset. He had every reason to be upset with me, because, I didn’t tell him a million and one things that have happened to me recently, including how I can now successfully make Igbo eba for 10 people. ππππ
*Inserts shaku shaku to the Most High*
All I know is I felt bad, but I kinda didn’t feel bad too.
– At least, My Mum and my sister know wassup. That’s all there really is.Β Right ? WRONG!!
In my opinion, for the longest time, these two people are the ones God has blest me with that I can call at 4:37am and they HAVE to pick up. I don’t feel like I need to apologize when they pick up the phone.
With them, I can shoot for the stars.
They are my Safe Space.
What exactly is a safe space ?
It is that one place you feel like a Sami-Ganja.Β More like a safe haven, it is that one thing/place/activity/favorite thing to do that gets you in your zone.
For some, it’s sitting still in one position with no interference. Tranquillity.
It’s like a reset factory, or a reactivation point.
Like a turn table to a DJ.
A long walk with that special someone.
A whole day without the internet and any yadayada.
Like Ice cream or junk food to Me.
Like “Up Nepa” to little Children.
Like the word of God to a believer.
It’s a Big bubble of safety and it’s only for you.
It could be Good food? A movie marathon? Sleeepppppp? Doing the laundry? Or washing dishes?
Heck, cleaning the house – a hundred times over .
What’s my Safe Space?
Mine is my family, good food, plenty play time, a good movie, spring cleaning.
1. I’m an auto cleaning/ rearranging machine and it takes grace to not shift that exercise book lying around from its position on the left to sit peacefully on top of the neatly piled ones on the right.Β My friends have had to tell me severally to LEAVE their stuff alone.
2. I like food. I don’t like all kinds of food, but I have a special thing for watching food network, for preparing the food and definitely super efficiently devouring it too. I’m not a salad eating kinda lady. I will eat a four-course meal and still ask for boli and groundnut on the road if I see.
3. I play a lot. Plan a hangout with me all week long and the only thing you’d hear me ask is ? What time do we meet?
4.Β I love my family. They are pretty much all I have after God. I love them means I can disturb them, cry with them, shout at them, tell them who I think I like and who I don’t, discuss an outfit choice with them, beg from them ( without shame or judgement) yell if I have to……
I don’t think I can do that to any other relation, friend, acquaintance, (maybe a special someone) without feeling like I need a ritual to appease the gods. I have a FEW friends that I regard as family, but there’s still a level of boundary respect I give to them regardless.
This is HOME.Β
We are all Human and we have Safe SpacesΒ
Now, I understand if my friend- big brother – kinda – Uncle feels like I left him out on all that’s been going on with me. He checks up on people, so he expects others to do the same to him.
Maybe I’m wrong to think I can do life with just 3 out of over 7 billion other amazing people.
I am now learning that as much as I need my Safe Space to survive, I need to make it safe for someone else. I should be able to let someone else feel safe around me. That’s the only way the world can be a better place.
So, What is your safe space?Β